Working Out and Physio

Well it's been a while since i last updated this blog, as i've been focusing solely on getting healthy, losing weight and getting rid of damn hip pain! And do i have any good news? Well so so really i have lost 10lbs which is lovely and certainly helpful for the hips. But pushing to go further and harder the hips soon push me right back just as hard and fast. The left seems to be magickally stronger and able to cope with a lot more than i could of ever dreamed of. Although if i go too fast it does shout alittle, but ice or heat and some rest soon knocks it back into shape. Whereas the right is still my biggest hindrance, just walking or doing steps on the wii (you know it's not high or hard to do) it flares up in a few mins, with aburning hot pain that not much will shift except alot of time to rest.

This puts me in a catch twenty two as my mind is mentally ready to keep going, as is my drive to lose more weight and tone up. But physically i'm still a broken doll, and is so frustrating to still be so hindered with hips after all this time. But staying positive i now can walk straight as those physio exercises O'Hara gave me have worked fantastically for this, sadly haven't cured the right as hoped. But i now have an appointment to see him again (after lots of begging and pleading via email and phone calls lol Bet he hates me now) For the end of May. I can't wait to hopefully get an answer and a solution as the right has now hurt officially for 6 years and i'm tired of it. Twice i've been told two separate surgeries would work to cure me from this pain and twice it's failed. Granted the extra pain from the left has gone, and this leaves me forever hopeful O'Hara can cure me from this right pain as he has never tackled this side only the left, and we know he has done magick with that side. It will be so good to get this sort of result on the right.

Workout wise i've been doing a 30 min step programme on the wii every other day or so, the yoga and muscle combo for 15 mins on days i don't do steps on the wii. I have done the O'Hara chair exercises every day 5mins x3 times a day. And various crunches and free weights for the upper body. Sometimes i try the stationary bike for 15mins at a time (but this bit me very hard on the ass today, super painful at the pelvic scar and top of thigh, Not sure if that's old dvt pain or actual hip femur pain?) And i use the elliptical trainer for 5mins x 3times in a day for cardio but only once or twice a week.

Cutting down on sugary sweets and drinks but not so i don't enjoy life, which honestly is hindering the full weight loss as i'm sure if i didn't have any treats i would lose more. But i don't want to be anal about it all.

Right guys i need more painkillers and a hot water bottle so i will check out for now. Hope your all healing well, and recovering from various surgeries, this hip journey is long and bumpy and i'm grateful i have you guys to help me through. xx

Working Out and Physio

Well it's been a while since i last updated this blog, as i've been focusing solely on getting healthy, losing weight and getting rid of damn hip pain! And do i have any good news? Well so so really i have lost 10lbs which is lovely and certainly helpful for the hips. But pushing to go further and harder the hips soon push me right back just as hard and fast. The left seems to be magickally stronger and able to cope with a lot more than i could of ever dreamed of. Although if i go too fast it does shout alittle, but ice or heat and some rest soon knocks it back into shape. Whereas the right is still my biggest hindrance, just walking or doing steps on the wii (you know it's not high or hard to do) it flares up in a few mins, with aburning hot pain that not much will shift except alot of time to rest.

This puts me in a catch twenty two as my mind is mentally ready to keep going, as is my drive to lose more weight and tone up. But physically i'm still a broken doll, and is so frustrating to still be so hindered with hips after all this time. But staying positive i now can walk straight as those physio exercises O'Hara gave me have worked fantastically for this, sadly haven't cured the right as hoped. But i now have an appointment to see him again (after lots of begging and pleading via email and phone calls lol Bet he hates me now) For the end of May. I can't wait to hopefully get an answer and a solution as the right has now hurt officially for 6 years and i'm tired of it. Twice i've been told two separate surgeries would work to cure me from this pain and twice it's failed. Granted the extra pain from the left has gone, and this leaves me forever hopeful O'Hara can cure me from this right pain as he has never tackled this side only the left, and we know he has done magick with that side. It will be so good to get this sort of result on the right.

Workout wise i've been doing a 30 min step programme on the wii every other day or so, the yoga and muscle combo for 15 mins on days i don't do steps on the wii. I have done the O'Hara chair exercises every day 5mins x3 times a day. And various crunches and free weights for the upper body. Sometimes i try the stationary bike for 15mins at a time (but this bit me very hard on the ass today, super painful at the pelvic scar and top of thigh, Not sure if that's old dvt pain or actual hip femur pain?) And i use the elliptical trainer for 5mins x 3times in a day for cardio but only once or twice a week.

Cutting down on sugary sweets and drinks but not so i don't enjoy life, which honestly is hindering the full weight loss as i'm sure if i didn't have any treats i would lose more. But i don't want to be anal about it all.

Right guys i need more painkillers and a hot water bottle so i will check out for now. Hope your all healing well, and recovering from various surgeries, this hip journey is long and bumpy and i'm grateful i have you guys to help me through. xx

Still Hurts

I have given these exercises a month now and although the left has gained so much stamina and strength the mobility is still hindering me from the right side only. I have returned to normal daily activities (ie, polishing, hoovering and normal ligh household chores) and walking as much as possible without a stick and as straight as i can (which is hard to do, and takes a lot of mental focus and easily exhausts me. And it keeps pulling me back into the depths of pain and despair, surely after a month this should of decreased somewhat and given me some ray of hope?

I have emailed numerous times with no luck, although i have tried again for the last time last night, as i'm at the end of my tether. I've decided to seek advice from my GP if and as and when i get to see her (as she is very very popular and hard to see!) And possibly get a new referral and even think about seeing someone else. The prospect of not seeing anyone for advice in the future even if that visit was 9 months away, that would give me some glimmer of hope and encouragement, as it is i just feel abandoned and discarded like trash.

Back onto more Tramadol which is not what i wanted, all along i've been tryig to reduce the amount i take, as they are not healthy. But as i increase my activities to a normal level, the pain flares up so hot and so painful that i have no choice. The pain is enough to drive anyone insane and lose interest in general life. So much of life is passing me by and i can't control this.

Still Hurts

I have given these exercises a month now and although the left has gained so much stamina and strength the mobility is still hindering me from the right side only. I have returned to normal daily activities (ie, polishing, hoovering and normal ligh household chores) and walking as much as possible without a stick and as straight as i can (which is hard to do, and takes a lot of mental focus and easily exhausts me. And it keeps pulling me back into the depths of pain and despair, surely after a month this should of decreased somewhat and given me some ray of hope?

I have emailed numerous times with no luck, although i have tried again for the last time last night, as i'm at the end of my tether. I've decided to seek advice from my GP if and as and when i get to see her (as she is very very popular and hard to see!) And possibly get a new referral and even think about seeing someone else. The prospect of not seeing anyone for advice in the future even if that visit was 9 months away, that would give me some glimmer of hope and encouragement, as it is i just feel abandoned and discarded like trash.

Back onto more Tramadol which is not what i wanted, all along i've been tryig to reduce the amount i take, as they are not healthy. But as i increase my activities to a normal level, the pain flares up so hot and so painful that i have no choice. The pain is enough to drive anyone insane and lose interest in general life. So much of life is passing me by and i can't control this.

Last Hospital visit at Birmingham

I actaully saw O'Hara yesterday and i never had an x-ray just had him see me and discharge me as his patient. Not sure how i feel about that to be very honest. I should be excited and pleased as my Hubby certainly is. But i know how much pain i'm in with the right side (he has gone back to saying it's severely overworked and over used and has given me the chair exercises again too, to only use the left leg while rising up from a chair and slowly sitting down.) Really hurts this exercise does and your so worn out any other exercise has to be forgotten about as does housework for a fair while too! I'm to do 10 mins a day doing this, 5 in the morning and 5 in the evening, and not work out he other leg at all. No mention of the rotation, it was almost like he hadn't wrote the email or had any knowledge of it? He simply wanted to hear how successful the left hip is and sign me off. Feel a little cheated if i'm seriously honest, and now Hubby is convinced there is nothing wrong with the right hip apart from being overworked like O'Hara says. So now i'm being told to go off and concentrate on that hip for 6 months, to build it up after decades of non useage. He did say it will hurt like hell and will tire me out, so he made sure he spoke to Richard when he said, it's time to forget the kids and running around after them and doing the housework, but rather use my time and energy to do this exercise instead and he will have to help out along with kids, lol That was good, so now i can say 'well he told you, you have to make tea!'

But something is feeling rather flat about it all, any normal person would be over the moon at no more surgery and recovery and all that jazz, but inside i'm doubting him and what he is saying. Which i know sounds like i don't trust him, and i feel guilty for that. I suppose the least i can do is the whole 6 months of doing exactly what he says and then if, i still have this mobility, limp and pain issue then i guess i can redress the problem again?? What would you guys do? Should i email him again asking about the femur that is rotated and why he didn't mention it yesterday?

AAAaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhh why can't i just be happy with what he says? Verdict on those exercises, as i did my 10 mins yesterday is they REALLY REALLY HURT and wore me out good and proper, i slept for hours afterwards, and this morning i honestly can't imagine doing them ever again, as i'm super stiff and super sore. But i will do them, Perhaps you guys could try them out too if you have one side weaker than the other, they are intended to get rid of the GIMP LIMP once and for all.

Debbie xx

Last Hospital visit at Birmingham

I actaully saw O'Hara yesterday and i never had an x-ray just had him see me and discharge me as his patient. Not sure how i feel about that to be very honest. I should be excited and pleased as my Hubby certainly is. But i know how much pain i'm in with the right side (he has gone back to saying it's severely overworked and over used and has given me the chair exercises again too, to only use the left leg while rising up from a chair and slowly sitting down.) Really hurts this exercise does and your so worn out any other exercise has to be forgotten about as does housework for a fair while too! I'm to do 10 mins a day doing this, 5 in the morning and 5 in the evening, and not work out he other leg at all. No mention of the rotation, it was almost like he hadn't wrote the email or had any knowledge of it? He simply wanted to hear how successful the left hip is and sign me off. Feel a little cheated if i'm seriously honest, and now Hubby is convinced there is nothing wrong with the right hip apart from being overworked like O'Hara says. So now i'm being told to go off and concentrate on that hip for 6 months, to build it up after decades of non useage. He did say it will hurt like hell and will tire me out, so he made sure he spoke to Richard when he said, it's time to forget the kids and running around after them and doing the housework, but rather use my time and energy to do this exercise instead and he will have to help out along with kids, lol That was good, so now i can say 'well he told you, you have to make tea!'

But something is feeling rather flat about it all, any normal person would be over the moon at no more surgery and recovery and all that jazz, but inside i'm doubting him and what he is saying. Which i know sounds like i don't trust him, and i feel guilty for that. I suppose the least i can do is the whole 6 months of doing exactly what he says and then if, i still have this mobility, limp and pain issue then i guess i can redress the problem again?? What would you guys do? Should i email him again asking about the femur that is rotated and why he didn't mention it yesterday?

AAAaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhh why can't i just be happy with what he says? Verdict on those exercises, as i did my 10 mins yesterday is they REALLY REALLY HURT and wore me out good and proper, i slept for hours afterwards, and this morning i honestly can't imagine doing them ever again, as i'm super stiff and super sore. But i will do them, Perhaps you guys could try them out too if you have one side weaker than the other, they are intended to get rid of the GIMP LIMP once and for all.

Debbie xx

ESA TRIBUNAL

Yay!!! I WON my case, i had the most wonderful Welfare Officer with me, and the guys that were reviewing my case were independent and one has an Orthopaedic background this helped me greatly and i'm ever so grateful. This was a victory i needed as i felt all along that my integrity had been called into question and i needed the validity and someone to finally believe me. No-one in their right mind would have surgery like i've just had if they could walk without pain, it's just not sensible to even suggest this. In fact it's insulting and emotionally exhausting. I had support from family and friends and i was strong inside, but i fear even this toppled me off my game, drained me of hope and focus and i found the whole process stressful and upsetting when i should of been concentrating on recovering from major surgery. Now i have to think of those that can't do this for themselves, or they don't have the support network i had. I had to find out about welfare officers this information wasn't offered, and while at my tribunal i was the only one that had this kind of support there. That alone is disgusting, especially when many that are failed are mentally impaired in some way and can't represent themselves. The Government are now trying to cut this valuable service and if they are successful, this would be a travesty. I wonder how long the rest of the country would turn a blind eye to this system, once there is no help? Could you imagine having dementia and trying to go through this process, it's like a mind field. Or being in a nervous disposition and having to speak out for yourself? This system is a sham and needs to be stopped full stop, and while it's still on going the Welfare Officers need to be saved for everyone that needs them.

Pls write to your MP's, Parliament, Social Security, GP's and Consultants too, make them aware of how it is failing the country's most vulnerable, how it affects you, how it makes you feel. I certainly am, i have to stand up and be counted for all those that can't do it for themselves!!

Did you know people dying from Cancer are going through this and not surviving this process to the end, to see their cases overturned like they should. My case alone took over 1year to be heard. When you should be focusing on trying to get better, they are making your life as difficult as possible. Is this how you want your loved ones treated, should they dare ever get ill or disabled and have to leave work? They spend more than 5 million trying to catch the so called scammers that claim for benefits they don't actually qualify for! How much do the scammers cost the country?i hear you ask, Well it's only 2 million i hear, so is this a reasonable way to spend the taxpayers money? It's costing more trying to catch them, than if they all just got away with it.

The day was emotionally exhausting like i said, and i will take a few days now to process the whole ordeal and get over it, and decide how i can act and campaign for those that need fighting for. I hope some of you feel as strongly as i do, and write a letter to you local MP xx